Remembering My Pregnancy

At the bookstore the other day, I ran into a sweet couple who was expecting their first baby in February. They were so excited and adorable, buying books for their baby. They were giddy with excitement and you could tell they were a little nervous. “It’s not to early to buy books is it?” she ask me, “It’s just that they hear your voice right? You just go in there and read to them.. right?” She was the cutest thing. I wanted to kiss her precious belly but I wasn’t sure how that would work out seeing as I had just met her, so I decided not to. I try to make friends not enemies.
Seeing them remind me how excited I was when I found out I was pregnant. How unsure I was of everything, how I had questions, how I just could.not.wait! I was looking back at some of the things I wrote when I was pregnant (last year on our other family blog) and I wanted to share some of them with you. I’m so glad I wrote this all down because it’s so fun to look back and see all the things I was thinking and doing!
Reading old post and writing them out again made me smile, laugh, and cry and remember how much of a wild ride pregnancy is! And how fast my baby really is growing!
This morning I took a test and it was positive. I started crying uncontrollably while pacing around the house just praying to God, thanking him for this blessing. This I just sat. And sat. And tried to tell myself that I was pregnant.
Then I took another test. Positive again. Seriously?!? SERIOUS!
Then later I took a THIRD test and NOW I’m starting to realize that I’M GROWING A BABY INSIDE OF ME!! A BABY!! A BABY!!!
It’s a BOY!!!!
A dude. A kid BOY.
I’m slightly freaking out.
I’m having a son.
Do you want to play in the mud or would you rather see how much sand you can put in that dump truck?
Let’s play football!!
So, I’m having a boy. I have 20 weeks to mentally prepare myself for this.
20 weeks.

26 weeks.
We had a “meeting” ( pre- child birth class) at the hospital. It was very educational because we learned that when you are in labor positions you are to wear a bright purple leotard. That’s right, a full body suit leotard. While in labor. Because that makes the most sense now doesn’t ? When else would you wear a full length leotard but in labor?!
I was told that when I start to go into the pre stages of labor I’ll still have time to take a shower and shave my legs before going to the hospital. Phew.
I need to get a car seat and cloth diapers by January.
I know my baby will most likely not be early, but what if?? What if he decides to come a few weeks early and I’m not prepared?! I can’t be just walking around and likely to explode and not have a car seat in the car.

Baring it all.
I have worked out my entire pregnancy but I’ve still managed to accumulate a nice layer of fat around my rear end and legs. I didn’t know this until Friday when I put on my two piece and walked in front of a life size mirror.
But have no fear, I’ll swim even if it kills me. So here I am. Pregnant and feeling large and about to jump into the pool. I swam for 30 minutes and felt like I was 120 pounds. I forgot I was pregnant for a minute! I decided that I don’t care what people think. Think about all the things you might not do if you did care what people were thinking. I could have gone through my entire pregnancy without swimming because I was too afraid that someone might see my expanded butt or the wedges of skin that have creased themselves into shapes and lines on my legs.
Pre pregnancy I avoided putting on a swimsuit in front of my dog. And here I am, more cellulite-d and bigger than ever and I’m practically naked in front of real people.
Having a baby changes everything doesn’t it?
I have run into a few problems being 29 weeks pregnant and being here in the snow.
For one, I can’t zip up my coat. That generally makes things colder. It’s three (3!!) degrees here so I would have liked to zip up my coat to keep the wind away, but it’s not possible unless I suck in. And if you haven’t tried it, you should, because sucking in your stomach while pregnant is pretty dang hard.
Dear little one,
It’s 1:52 in the morning. I can’t sleep. All I can think about is you. Do you know that since I was little I have wanted to be a mom? It’s the one thing I knew for sure- that I wanted to have kids. When your daddy and I got married, having kids became the topic of many of our conversations. We always thought it would be best to wait until we were “ready” or something. I didn’t care about how hard it would be or how we would pay for things (they say that kids are expensive) or what people would say, I just wanted to be a mom. It’s like my dream.
You have been growing inside me for over 35 weeks. we know each other prety well, but we havent’ met yet. But soon my sweet baby, we will meet! I already know that it will be the best day of your daddy’s and I’s life. I already know we will love you to pieces. I already know we will wonder what we ever did without you.
Tonight, while you’re keeping me up, I thank God for you. I am so blessed to be able to carry you and give you life. You can keep me up all night if you need, it’s no problem. But I do hope you like to sleep as much as I do, ’cause trust me, it’s real fun!
I love you sooooo much! See you in a while!
– Mama
Last night Thomas and I took a lamaze/childbirth education class at the hospital.
It’s hard to do squats in jeans. Don’t wear squats during labor.
Get a birthing ball for the house ASAP.
I need to practice.
My baby’s butt is way too far up as far as I’m concerned.

I want to hide in a closet. Maybe when I’m in there I could give birth to my baby too.
I am at the hospital.
I went in at 5 am and I was 4 cem dialated. At 7:30 am I was 8. Luke was born at 11:00 am.
He is 7 pounds, one ounce and 21 inches long!
I am on Thomas’ computer which I can’t type well on and I’m exhausted so I will write more later. I am sooooo tired.


Published by Samantha Mellen

Certified personal trainer & health coach helping women transform their lives through fitness, abundant mindset coaching and internal peace. Mom of two boys, living life in Alaska.

18 thoughts on “Remembering My Pregnancy

  1. This is all so sweet! I love reading your blog because we have such similar situations…I am the same age as you and my son was born March 12. So I love hearing your perspective on so many of the same things that I am going through!

  2. reading your first post about being pregnant makes me tear up a little…my hubby and I have had a rocky road with this whole pregnancy thing…and I remember when I got my first positive, and I did the same thing…paced around the house…shaking…thanking God for the baby that grew in me….

    its such a crazy mix of emotions.

    cute blog…!


  3. Awh, I miss being pregnant. My youngest turns 2 this week, and I've spent the better part of the past few days remembering being pregnant and having him. I do miss it. Great post.

  4. That's so sweet! It makes you look back on your pregnancy with joy. We don't remember as much the backpain, heartburn, & swelling. We remember all the excitement and love! I'm tearing up a little! *sniff*

  5. that is really cool you have all of it documented! I loved reading. Makes me crack up. We are all so excited to be pregnant at the beginning. Then in the 30's weeks we are DONE!!!
    Great post!!

  6. that was so sweet!! i love looking back at things i wrote while i was pregnant..that's a good idea to post some of those! i didn't start my blog til after baby…
    and my little noah had that same brown bear suit! i loved him in it!! one of my favorite pictures is of him in it with just his little brown bear paws showing! 🙂 so precious! congratulations!

  7. Oh this makes me remember mine, and cry, and think I can't wait to find out if this baby is a boy or a girl! What a great walk down memory lane. It is funny with the third – no books, no frantic online searches (despite this being a high risk pregnancy), no constant A Baby Story…just running around after the two wonderful toddlers I have asking them not to kick the baby in my tummy….wait until he or she arrives to let him know who's boss!

  8. ps i just read your “about me”…i too am 23, have been married for 3 1/2 years when we had noah (4 now), and noah is our first little guy. i love finding new friends! 🙂

  9. This reminds me so much of my pregnancy too. Just the anxiety, preparation and watching my body change (in ways I didn't want it to!). It's so funny to me how unique being pregnant is, yet every women who has been can relate. My son is only 8 1/2 weeks so I have yet to miss being pregnant so far! Haha.

  10. I'm glad that I starting blogging while I was pregnant so that I can look back and remember all the little things that I know I'll forget even though I treasure them. I have momnesia. Great post!

  11. Aww. Sweet. Did you have your baby in February too? It is so strange to see other people who are going to have February babies. I think it will be very differnt for #2, but, of course, I'm not sure how. Thanks for the walk down memory lane. And I hear you on the coat issue! We had record lows here of -30! Clara kicked me hard when we went out in those temperatures!

  12. I just read your latest post and then got linked to this one. I loved reading your pregnancy journey, it was too cute!
    Not having a baby…yet…but I'd love to do this. It must be so nice to go back and read it!!

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