Notice how I said ” I am Beautiful” before the “I Have Stretch Marks,” because those things do not define us.
Tonight after I got out of the shower, I looked at myself in the mirror and saw them.
Yesterday I had one itty bitty one, and now today, I have um, a few more of “them.”
I almost cried. I was (am) mad at them. I don’t like them. They are ugly. The are red. They need to go away. I kept looking at them, like they are just these disgusting things on my body. I saw one on the side of my stomach. EW! I am disgusted at my stomach.
That’s what you get for having two pregnancies in two years.
:: grumble grumble ::
You should have laid off the ice cream, then maybe you wouldn’t have gained so much weight and let your stomach grow and grow, and get stretch marks.
:: disgusted look at myself ::
Oh, heck no. I am not going to live like this. There are some things you can change, and some things you cannot. I looked at myself in the mirror, I looked at those stretch marks. I put my tank top down. I stood there. I said to myself, You are beautiful. You are growing your child. You are beautiful.
I’m not going to lie. THAT WAS HARD.
But, I did it again. And again.
I have grown a beautiful baby boy. My body carried him. My body fed him for one year. I’m growing another beautiful baby. My body is strong. My body is amazing. I am beautiful.
I said it a couple more times.
ROCKSTAR BABY, ROCKSTAR.
I took some pictures of myself. And I’m not going to lie. THAT WAS REALLY HARD.
If you tell yourself that enough times, you just might believe it.
Say it to yourself today….. You are Beautiful! You are a mom, with left over pregnancy weight or not, with stretch marks or not, with a scar or not, with saggy boobs or not, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL.
Embrace it Mama.
(This post was hard to write. Putting up this picture? TORTURE. It’s actually making me slightly sick to my stomach. But, I want to prove a point. THESE THINGS DO NOT DEFINE US. THEY DO NOT DEFINE YOU. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. TELL YOURSELF. TELL YOUR FRIENDS.)
p.s. I am 37 weeks pregnant and thank you, I know they will fade. I’m not worried about that.. that’s not what this post is about. 🙂