I feel a little selfish starting my Thursday morning off with a list of things I want, but just take this as my own little journal right now. A lot of pages I follow on Facebook are asking the question, “ what do you want for Mother’s day?” So, yes, I have been thinking about it because last night my little baby was up from 12:30-3am and I had some time to think.
What do I want for Mother’s Day?
You only get one Mother’s day a year, so I have to think this out very carefully.
At first, I thought I wanted a few things that costed money. Like, a Mother’s Day ring or some money to buy new exercise clothes or some new makeup. But then, I decided that’s not want I want at all.
Here is what I want for Mother’s Day.
1. Go for a long run without feeling guilty and worrying or wondering about the kids and husband. Not have to say again, “yes honey, I’m training for a half marathon, remember” when he ask if I’m really going to be gone for an hour and a half for running.
2. Take a nap in the middle of the day, maybe outside if it’s warm enough, on my stomach.
3. Go shopping. I have two gift cards (that my husband gave me almost a year ago, last year on my birthday, oops!) that I want to spend… but going to Old Navy with a toddler and a baby is just not happening.
4. Family pictures or professional pictures of my boys together.
5. Go to the gym and lift weights, then get a professional massage afterwards. Maybe I will go tanning too.
Basically, I want some time to be alone. I want to go out and be myself for a few hours and the hardest part of that — I want to do it guilt free and just enjoy the time. I might be able to leave the house to go workout or to the grocery store sometimes, but I still have that nagging guilt in the back of my head and I still always worry about the kids when I’m gone. I mean, I know they’re fine with daddy obviously, but I still think about it and feel guilty for leaving them with my husband when he’s been at work all week and he needs a mental break too!
So honey if you give me a day to myself on Mother’s Day, I’ll give you yours on Father’s Day… and every day this summer… keep that in mind.
I love my family more than anything, but I would love a few hours of solitude. And then afterwards, I want to spend the afternoon at the park with my loves! Hopefully the sun will be out!
What do you want??