I have plans to travel to Oregon this fall for a short weekend to see family, go to a football game, and throw my friend a baby shower. I’m not taking either of the kids because I know I won’t be able to enjoy a full football game at 7pm with a child in tow, and I also wouldn’t be able to throw my friend a shower and hang out with girls for three hours. It just wouldn’t happen.
So, I’m going alone for a few days.
I’m really excited. I think. I don’t know, I keep having mixed emotions about it. Of course I want to see my family and of course I am so so so so soo excited to go to a football game and see my pregnant BFF and throw her a baby shower. I am so excited about that. But I am scared out of my mind to get on a plane and leave my babies!!
I’m terrified of flying.
It has seriously been keeping me up at night. I get a stomach ache when I think about being gone from them for three days. Like, am I going to get dropped off at the airport and start bawling? I can already imagine myself in the airplane. I need to pick up a pair of huge sunglasses so people don’t see my crying like a mad women. You think I’m joking.
What is wrong with me?? Ugh. I know I am being such a worry wart and thinking of all the worst scenarios!
I feel like I’m all hormonal. I swear my hormones are out of whack from having children.
I freaking hate planes. If you have a fear of planes, don’t ever move to Alaska because I feel like I hear horror stories all the time about small planes crashing. My kids will NEVER get on one of those small planes. I can’t handle it. They freak me out.
I am not worried AT ALL about the care of my kids when I’m gone. My husband will be with them the whole time. Honestly, I don’t even think they’ll miss me or realize I’m gone much. It’s only three days.
I just keep telling myself that people fly ALL THE TIME. I have friends who go on vacations without their kids and go away for the weekend and everything goes fine. They have a great time.
Then I have these thoughts like, maybe I shouldn’t go. Maybe three days isn’t even worth it and I should just wait until we all go as a family next summer.
I am just a mess ya’ll.
I’m sure once I get there I will have a great time. I know I will have a ton of fun! I just feel like I will be so far away from my babies. AH!
I know this post was all over the place. Sorry about that. I’m just trying to get these things off my chest.
If you could please tell me I am overreacting and freaking out for no reason and that everything will be fine and I will have a great time……