home.

So I was just getting on the computer to blog after a very long exhausting day. Then I caught myself watching old videos of my kids?!  Why are us mom’s SO messed up??

We just got home from visiting family and friends in Oregon. Lots of driving and a few hours on a plane mixed with a couple meltdowns and two very tired parents means bedtime was a super sweet victory tonight. I am so excited to sleep in my own bed, only to be awoken by my kids at an early hour, I’m sure.

I sit down almost every night to write – to blog – but I very rarely publish anything because most of it is just me putting my thoughts onto pages which isn’t usually much. Tonight I will actually post.

I couldn’t wait to take a shower today. To shave my legs in my own shower and wash my hair with shampoo from my big ol’ bottle and to let the hot water soak a little bit longer. I think that sounds high maintenance. We we’re camping, I had great showers available to me, but tell me you know that your own shower is nothing like anyone else’s shower but really what this is about is the fact that YOU MUST SHOWER AFTER YOU GET OFF AN AIRPLANE.  Favorite moments in life: stepping off an airplane and breathing in fresh air. And long hot soapy showers afterwards.

On the plane ride the lady sitting next to me told me she has 5 (FIVE.) boys. They are all in their 20’s and 30s now so she tells me that these years will go by so fast and everything that everyone always tells you about mothering and enjoying life and you are just like, I KNOW. Trust me. I yelled at my kids and couldn’t wait for them to go to bed and then 6 minutes later I wanted them snuggling with me on the couch. I know. It is unconventional chaos in the most loving warped way possible.

So um, did you know Christmas is in a month? Are we suppose to do something about that? I have hardly recovered from Thanksgiving and now I am suppose to shift my brain and prepare for Christmas? I will keep things simple as usual, but maybe even more so this year.  I haven’t even thought about Christmas cards. I think we’ll decorate next weekend. Or maybe the weekend after that because next weekend we are celebrating our wedding anniversary.  Crossing our fingers we can find a babysitter for a couple hours.  I honestly don’t want to buy my kids any toys for Christmas this year. I am so sick of picking up toys that they don’t actually play with but still end up on the stairs and in between my toes at 2 in the morning.  Maybe we will do one big toy and then I really want to spend the money on gymnastic and soccer classes. I really wanted to get a real tree this year but they are literally like $80 + to buy here in Anchorage and then they die a week later. But I am seriously bored with our 6 year old fake tree. What other options do I have?

So here it is 9:30pm and all I want to do is sleep in my own bed and have alone time at the same time. A week with almost no alone time, my introverted side almost lost it. Tomorrow I will go to the gym. Should probably exercise this week.

Published by Samantha Mellen

Certified personal trainer & health coach helping women transform their lives through fitness, abundant mindset coaching and internal peace. Mom of two boys, living life in Alaska.

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