After reading my last post I realize it all sounds pretty negative. That’s what happens when I don’t filter or proofread, and just sit down to write whatever spurts out of my brain. Sometimes no plan leads to a dear diary posts which I happen to believe is what we need more of. More real life messy stuff and less piterest worthy moments.

I have seven posts currently in draft mode. Here’s to courageously posting more…

Thanks for sticking with me the last couple of weeks as I’ve moved/transferred blogs and reorganized some things. Finding Mama Notes was so unexpected that my plan has sort of been unfolding as I go. All of my old posts and comments should be available in the archives and this space will be my new home. I am trying to get Mama Notes back or figure out a new name – bare with the title/blog changes until then. 🙂 Hope you like.  xoxo

I always start one thing with a vision of something grand only to find myself changing directions 1/4 of the way into it. Perhaps that’s my go-getter spirit tied with my lack of decision making skills. I loved what Chalene Johnson said in her podcasts several weeks ago; if we waited until we knew exactly what we were doing we would never do it. Because as we create and invent, we figure stuff out and fix the mistakes or change the directions. I love that I can just rest easy in that. In life really. Just do the next thing. The next step or the next turn that feels right.

My heart is heavy tonight with sad updates of strangers or an acquaintance or friends, people who are suffering or dying or losing someone. Sometimes I feel guilty or like my time must be coming soon because how is it that I’m the lucky one when this person is losing their husband or awaiting tumor results for their daughter. How have I missed this tragic burden? Why not me? Why me? Not of it is fair and none of it makes sense and none of it is right. I can’t understand anything that happens to any of us. I’m at lost for words — would you just pray with me or send up love to some people tonight?

Published by Samantha Mellen

Certified personal trainer & health coach helping women transform their lives through fitness, abundant mindset coaching and internal peace. Mom of two boys, living life in Alaska.

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